"Wow, I can see up T.J.'s nose."

So, today was, um...interesting? But I'll just put it this way. I figured out why I've been cranky, irratable, tired, and hating all members of the male species lately. Unfortunately there's very little I can do about it except for eat chocolate and listen to angry girl rock till I feel like doing something.

I'm totally home alone right now and I'm blaring "Evanescence" on the computer stereo system, so take 'blaring' as a grain of salt. I just got back from watching the tennis players warm up I guess. It was funny because I watched Steven serve like, twice and I totally knew what was happening. Maegan noticed it too, but we decided not to tell him then - when I was there - as he'd probably go balistic on us and tell us we don't know what we're talking about. I manage to have that effect on Steven, as I hold a very special place in his heart that's all mine. No one else can touch it, though Maegan tries quite hard. Actually, now that I think about it there are probably quite a few people that have a claim on that spot, though I think I'm one of the only ones that takes a small peice of pride in claiming it.

No one's answered my question about disliking but caring about people yet. I wish someone would explain it to me.

Max is our A.S.B. president. As much as I give him crap about it, I can't help but think it's totally sweet. I'm not sure what to look forward to next year but it'll probably be sweet.

Dude, worst/weirdest mood today. It was just the urge to totally rage on everybody, especially two certain people, but I only raged on one and raged on a person that wasn't in my "raging" spectrum. Gol, I'm so weird. I honestly don't know what brings on these feelings sometimes. Maegan half jokingly said she thinks I'm bi-polar but in truth it wouldn't surprise me, it sorta runs in the family.

My ankle hurts.

Chocolate is good.

I curled up in a ball under a table today in Spanish. Honestly, I felt like total crap. The irony is no one cared. ...and I just re-read that and it sounded really depressing, but I meant no one cared I was rolled up in a ball under that table...yeah, I'm leaving before I confuse myself more.

-Jillian Out

p.s. you know how sometimes you hear songs that make you think of people? Is it bad that "everybody's fool" makes me think of someone? Bah...I'm a horrible evil person...

I think I'm going to listen to that song again