1) I've eaten anything and everything the past few days. I'm not sure why. I just constantly want food. And no, I'm not dehydrated, I drink lots of liquids and have to pee quite often, as I'm sure Stanley will attest.
2) I. LOVE. READING. Not so much of the textbook variety, though certain textbooks are so much fun to read. Like my poli-sci book for instance. No, I'm talking about regular novel, plot and story driven books. I've put this love on the back burner recently...until I borrowed Harry Potter. I received it Monday at noon and finished it last night at three. I become a complete recluse when I have a good book. I have this bad tendency to ditch out on social situations when I could be reading instead. I only stop reading so I could hang out with someone once, though I was often tempted by good friends and Oreo's. I know, I know, intense.
3) I'm over finals. Seriously. I haven't even taken any of mine yet and I'm done with them. I think it's because in my mind I know I can't really force myself to learn anything new in the few days before I take the tests, all that there is to do is review and refresh the information, and you can only spend so much time doing that before it becomes counter-productive.
4) I really enjoy my boyfriend. I think he's cute and pretty fantastic.
5) I sometimes tell people I miss them when I don't. I feel like it's an obligatory response when someone says they miss me. And unless I really DON'T miss someone, like, I'm enjoying NOT being with them I'll usually say it back to them. Odds are at some point in my life I've thought about them and gone "Oh, sad, I haven't seen them for a while. That should be changed." Because of this rationale, I do not feel saying I miss them if I don't is a lie.
6) When I tell someone I love them, I am, in a sense, saying I enjoy them, their company, and the exploits we share together. Usually this is accompanied by at least a minor interest in their life, more often than not, a major interest in their life. That being said, I've been very VERY careful not to tell anyone I'm IN love with them, as that's something entirely different to me. Though I can't say exactly how it's different. That whole IN love thing is something I'm still trying to define.
7) I am sometimes frustrated by how much I care for people and how inadequate I am at expressing said feelings.
8) I love singing. And I miss it. I'm so glad we're doing this little jam session things once a week.
9) I wish I played the piano. I feel like a failure sometimes because all I can do is sing. And play the baritone horn. But, really? The baritone horn? Yeah... At least if I played the piano I could accompany myself and others, which would be brilliant.
10) I went to Passover with Stanley last Saturday. Being with him and the service itself were both wonderful.
11) I want sushi. It's kind of a constant need. That and Thai curry. I really should learn how to make it.
12) Today, whilst sitting outside in the sun, on Stanley's U of U blanket, in a tank top, wearing my little cross necklace, I couldn't help but realize I'm not exactly the typical BYU co-ed. I don't think it's possible for me to rat my hair enough to become so.
13) I love photography. Sometimes I wish I had a camera that was actually capable of capturing the nuances that you can see with the naked eye. I also wish I was better at carrying around my camera so I could at least attempt to capture some of the beauty I see all around me. Like the other night on temple square. That would've been a beautiful picture opportunity, but alas, I fail.
14) IT'S SPRING! And by spring I mean it only snows a little bit, broken with intermittent periods of beauty and warmth! And the grass is so beautiful and green, the trees beginning to bud slightly, and the flowers are opening themselves to the warmth and growth the sun offers. *sigh* Heavenly.
15) I've officially spent a half hour typing this instead of studying my anthropology readings. I love my life :) Time to be productive and go to a review session!
Toodles!
-Jillian
